And the thing is—I want to connect. I want to grow my relationship with God. That’s been one of my biggest goals this season. But this has been the biggest challenge on the journey. Because no one really talks about how hard the actual reading can be. The guilt, the shame, the frustration—it all hits.

But recently I started listening to The Bible Recap, and wow—it’s been such a blessing. It breaks things down in a way I can actually follow, and it helps me feel less alone in this process. I’ve started giving myself permission to not “get it” all at once. To trust that understanding will come with time. That God isn’t keeping score, He just wants me to keep showing up.

Right now, my biggest obsession—my therapy, my release, my everything—is cycle. Yup. Indoor cycling. Spin class. Clipping in and zoning out. If you know, you know.

There’s something so powerful about being in that dark room, music blasting, legs pumping—it’s like my body finally gets to scream out all the things my mouth can’t say. I get so in the zone that I’ve actually cried during multiple classes. And not a cute tear either—I’m talking real, emotional release. It’s kind of wild, but the only other place I’ve ever felt something that deep and spiritual is church.

Growing up, my sister and I weren’t especially close.
We didn’t tell each other our deepest, darkest secrets.
We didn’t hang out together unless we were forced to.
We were just… siblings. Living in the same house, sharing a bloodline, but building very separate lives.

I had the most magical relationship of my life. The kind that little me little Ashley used to pray for, dream about, write letters to the universe for. And somehow, I got it. I really did. I experienced a love that made me feel seen, safe, and hopeful. It was beautiful, and we built something that, for a while, felt like it could withstand anything.

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